First Time Out

Hello! I'm just writing a short little thing to kind of introduce this new blog. I'm sure a lot of you remember Cawdor Designs. I wanted that site to last forever, but... Well, all things must come to an end. I am the process of my life completely and utterly restarting, from scratch, at 34. I am just at a loss, and I want to completely reinvent myself with all of my life. New social media presence, new outlook on life, new relationships, new everything. I want to really just restart here, and that means I have to really get down to brass tacks and look at everything that I have.

That isn't easy to do, honestly. I have Cawdor Designs, FattyWords, a Toyhou.se, and a whole slew of other things already going on. So I want to start all over again, but I have so much spread around that starting over isn't exactly going to be easy. This new site is a first step for that. Something small, sure, but something that I am going to be doing. I will NOT be posting any of my old writing on this site. Everything I've written back then is going to stay archived on FurAffinity only, and that's it. I may change my mind on that and post stories from the last couple years, but really? I am just comfortable leaving everything as it is. This has nothing to do with the amount of work it would be to post 200-some odd stories here, but the fact that I just... Want to start completely over. I want to rip off the bandaid of everything that I have done and establish myself all over again. Set myself up for success and all that without looking back and without trying to pretend that I can ride the coat tails of what I did anymore.

Covid and the last 3 years of being sick and having my health so bad have been hard. They've been basically impossible in fact. Mix in the fact that I stayed in a dead relationship for too long as well as the fact that I was just riding on the success I'd gotten as Sasuke... And well, I can understand why I am here when I look at it objectively. So I want to not reinvent myself, but basically revitalize myself. To start with a slate that I can work with. Not blank; the past happened and that will always be the case. But I do want... A do-over I guess. A second chance. Devon was that second chance in the fandom with a fursona, and I squandered it because of my injuries and my depression. But I don't want to keep doing that. So, I am going to do my best to move forward and really start over again.

Wish me luck in this... I'm gonna need it.